Amen for Brothers

Productivity is such a contagious thing. 

I find it easy to get into slumps days on end of unproductive hours wasted. I dig myself deep into holes there is just no way i can get out of on my own.

Blessedly I have a God who believes in me and Who all i need to do is call on.

Blessedly there are people in my life that devote there time to the vision.

Blessedly someday God will provide an even more devoted person, a partner.

A day together, and now i can go days alone. Amen for brothers.

A Lifetime

Man I am just floored right now by The Wedding and everything that they are. What a beautiful thing. What is more beautiful? The making of one between two of God's most precious creations. The whole day, the magic, the happiness. Nothing sweeter. I am glad that they at least still retain some substance, are not just a wasted day, treated carelessly. Our culture is a ruthless killer, I hate what it has done to so many things.

I can't help being completely terrified at the same time though, and I am sure I am not alone. What a scary thing, committing yourself to one person FOREVER. I mean I have a hard time committing to things even weeks away. Forever? How do I know they are the "right" person? What if we change? What if there is someone "better" for me? No wonder the divorce rate is so high. The wedding is so beautiful, and then made so ugly when people treat it only as a day. It is more than a day. It is a lifetime. 

But in the end, really I can't wait for the day. It used to be for all the good stuff that the day is. But now, I mainly can't wait to get to that day because once that day comes, that pretty much means I will finally be that committed and learned what the real definition of love is. 

"Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant,  does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,  does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

Ok, maybe i won't really know how to love yet, but why do you think He decided a lifetime?

The ________ Family.

I love to people watch sometimes. Especially when the people make my heart ache, or make me smile. Like this family i have seen twice now at corner bakery. They sat in the same place as well as i, for the second time now. I wonder if they recognize me. I do them. When i saw them sit down, i almost had that feeling you get when you see an old friend, or family member you haven't seen for a while. They love each other so much. You can just tell. I love to watch the dad just sit there all content after his meal, while the mom and daughter enjoy conversation together. The daughter loves her parents so much, you can just see it in her face, how happy she is to be there with them. Sometimes i listen to their conversations (whoops) but for the most part i serenade myself with great music while i glance at their faces every once in a while. Sometimes a face can speak louder than any amount of words ever could.

I'm dreaming of a white, christmas

So I walked outside to warm up and pat the dog, and I noticed it was starting to snow!

Well it looked like it was. Then I remembered people are fighting for their homes against an evil beast of roaring flames.

I was amazed at some of the ashes. If you look you can actually see the veins of the leaf. Then it made me think, it isn't just some ash, it was an actual leaf, who knows, maybe even from some ones backyard. Little things, like a leaf floating hundreds of miles to my backyard, can amaze me. I hate how my heart can be so numb. I mean just look at the title i started with. I was going to take it down, but i'll leave it anyways. Something destroying peoples lives reminding me of a time of joy? Kind of disgusting, the reality hasn't sunk in. 

David Jayne, of the Big Bear Lake Fire Dept., fights a wildfire as a house burns on a hillside in Running Springs. (Marcio Jose Sanchez / Associated Press)

Still Hasn't.

CM's. I dont like drinking them but they are my favorite to make.

I totally feel how Jesus feels when choosing disciples, and in my case artists and the like. I saw a guy drawing at starbucks the other day, and noticed he was pretty dang good. So i approached him, complimented his work and asked a little about it. He explained some, showed some, we exchanged info, and introduced ourselves (ya supposed to be done first, we pulled an upside down macchiato. man what is starbucks doing to me!?) and then said good day. 

And what i was thinking the whollllllle time was, he is amazing and such a cool humble guy, that may not even know how good he is. I can't describe it as well as i would like but there is some pure joy in "running"(coincidence?) into these people, and having the opportunity to work with them and be blessed by their amazing gifts.

Tyler, you know you're not alone.....

I know. But i am

Serious Mumble Jumble

I finally feel ready.

that doesn't even communicate it well

I FINALLY FEEL READY

UHHH MAN. i finally feel like i am taking ownership.

I have been in the "dumps" for a long while (backlsliding, dark night of the soul etc. you get it). In plain words i have been living a really selfish life. And i think there are seasons in ones life that it is ok. But it has been too long. I don't even know when or how it is happening but i am just ready. Probably has some to do with my last blog. 

I just spent 20 minutes or so trying to find a sweet quote to put here about making a difference in the world, and BEING the hands and feet of Christ, etc. ect.

No such luck, so do your part and imagine with me, and try to feel where im coming from.